Well that was shit.
Like I don’t even know where to start. I watched the game yesterday with a certain anxiety at the beginning that slowly grew into fear, then by the end I was just numb. I laughed at the goals we conceded, actually clapped for the second, it was a fine strike indeed.
People around me wondered why I acted this way, I dunno. Maybe it’s my coping mechanism because on the inside I was truly unhappy. When was the last time I enjoyed an Arsenal game? I can’t even remember anymore. I have no confidence in this team, no confidence in the manger, no confidence in the board… just nothingness.
This was a chance to maybe, maybe, do something and get something from this season, but that’s gone now. I wasn’t planning to watch the Barcelona game to begin with but now i’m definitely sure I don’t want to see it. Theo Walcott intimated that there had been a team meeting before the match against Hull city which culminated in a 4-0 win. I guess that meeting was about that match alone, definitely not the rest of the season.
Most Arsenal fans have given up on this season. Yesterday I had some hope, it’s the hope that kills you they say and I think their right. Maybe I was naïve, maybe I was doe eyed, but I can’t watch my and not hope or even will them to win, so to get crushed again and again, that’s a hard one to take.
The players don’t look happy, Wenger doesn’t seem to have a handle on them. Players like Gabriel show that surely Squilacci has been reborn as a poltergeist and I haunting the clubs dressing room and has probably possessed Gabriel. I’m trying hard not to talk about individual performances because they were all bad in my opinion. Maybe it’s my tunnel vision, but that’s all I can see.
We need a change and the only change that makes sense is the coach. Wenger has to leave. Again I repeat, I don’t hate the manager and I really do respect everything he’s done and I do believe he loves the club, but sometimes, hard as it is to swallow, love just isn’t enough. That seems to be the clear case here. I wonder if some of our star players aren’t questioning their decisions to come here in the first place.
I can’t type anymore. I’m emotionally spent. Weirdly enough we could still win the league, we need our rivals to falter seriously for that to happen but that is still possible. The problem is that even if our rivals falter I don’t think any Arsenal fan has any trust in the team to capitalize on those mistakes. Well we’ll see how things pan out. We play Barcelona on Wednesday (Can’t even watch) and then Everton on Saturday morning, we’ll see if the spiral continues then.